The line between friendship & boyfriend..

Over the past few months i have noticed i have become rather close to Josh. Not that it really matters cause we were best friends before we went out. But suddenly everyone else is noticing our closeness and is coming to the conclusion that were going out again. Unfortunatley for him im deeply in love with Douglas George Walsh. But then comes the question, "how close is too close?"

If i am giving that perception that means that i am a bit flirty but i dont intend to be. Being over affectionate comes into my nature. I told josh today that me and him are destined to be best friends. And i mean it, he cheers me up when im down and i can always count on him to talk to. But being beyond friends is out of the question. I already went down that road and it didnt turn out well. He is like a big brother to me although i am older than him. But he gives the sense of a big brother. Protective and caring and a bit obnoxious. Well, of course he is -cause he is a peasant. LOL. (inisde joke)

Does is really matter what everyone else thinks? Even Josh thinks that my boyfriend wont like him.. but really i dont find him a threat in anyway. We understand each other- too well maybe and there should be no crime in that. What is important is that those who are close to me understand my situation with him. A best friend and nothing more.

He may be doing everything that he didnt do in out relationship before, such as talking and holding my bag... and just being there for me . But now we can share something without being dependant on commitment in the sense of love as friendship has love automatically pushed into the equation.

A may be pushing the line between friendship and relationship with josh but as long as i know where my loyalty lies and where the boundaries are set im sure that our friendship can flourish without the complications of everyone elses implications and rumors.

P.S there was a cat outside and staring at me. Fucken scary as...