My unworthy heartbreak..

My heartbreak plays back in my mind

Knowing our incredible love is history
Remembering all the good times we shared
Why we ever gave up is a mystery



I remember it like it was yesterday
The moment out eyes first met
The chemistry, the connection, the spark
Who would of know it would all become my regret



Our memories soon turned into nightmares
They haunted me when i went to sleep
Your smile soon changed into anger
You and i had fallen to deep



Into the unknown waters if love
Feelings of hatred devoured my soul
And every time i reached for hope
Deeper and deeper i would fall



I felt as though i was bleeding
Pouring out all of my heart
For every time i tried to love you
You'd give an excuse for us to part



You liar, you cheat, you fool
Feeding me your artificial love
Giving me thoughts of love and care
As if i was your precious dove



Do you honestly think i believed?
Every sweet word that you spoke
All the 'i love you' and 'i need you'
It was all just a stupid joke



All of my tear filled pillows
Just suddenly began to dry
My heart, broken in pieces
Because i was living a lie



Then you had the nerve to say
That we're not meant to be
Me heart, you left to die
And made sure everyone could see

I tried to feel my heart beat
But the pain was too much to bear
Then i built up the courage
And found out it wasn't there


I wish i never met you
That our lives wern't intertwined
For every time i stuggled
You would just leave me behind

Did i ever mean anything to you?
Did you every just think of me?
It took me so long to realise
The devil! You were he


You were never worth the trouble
All my costly time wasted
The mere thought of loving you
Now leaves my devastated


I burnt all your pictures
Threw out all your letters
I've erased you from my life
And to think, i actually feel better


I'm finally freed from your heavy cjains
I am a bird that began to fly
My memories of you are long gone
Watch me fade away, as i say good bye...

NB: i wrote this poem like 2 years ago. But it means as much then as it does now. Me an my boyfriend are NOT broken up. I just like this poem.